A woman at church (thanks Jackie Herr) sent me a letter in the days following my diagnosis and prayer service that got me thinking. I was drawn to the image she gave me when she shared this passage. She said the words kept going through her head as they prayed for me. If you go to Deuteronomy 7 you’ll read about God’s promises to the Israelites through Moses….that he will provide land for them as He had promised and not only that, but He would send Hornets (7:20) to make sure that any survivors would be driven out.
This is the end of their time wandering, they’re at the cusp of all they’ve been waiting for. Surely they are filled with doubt. Surely they want to run to other idols and other God’s for protection. This has certainly been a long 40 years for them. Many of them certainly don’t even remember the provisions of God in Egypt. But Moses isn’t going to let them forget. Deuteronomy is full of hope, it’s reflecting on what has been and what God plans to do for the Israelites. The cards are stacked against them, their giants are larger, the rivers are wider, the mountains are higher, but that doesn’t matter to a powerful God. He’s got a plan. He won’t let one minute detail go by the wayside.
“These nations are stronger than we are, how can we drive them out?” (7:17)
“The Lord will keep you free from every disease, He will not inflict on you the horrible diseases you knew in Egypt.” (7:15)
The thing about inflammatory breast cancer that is different from normal breast cancer is its ability to travel and hide. Many people can’t understand why I didn’t have a complete and radical mastechtomy first and then chemo. It’s because my breast cancer basically started in my lymph nodes. A bunch of naughty cells clumped together and created a waste block for my breast….so rather than a lump my cancer runs through my entire breast in sheets…..it basically effects the whole breast and all the skin. Then there’s the issue of the lymph nodes and escaping cells. IBC travels fast….very fast….and is often too late once it’s diagnosed (mine was diagnosed early and that is a VERY good thing). Doing the chemo first ensures that all those naughty stray cells get zapped first. That way when they take everything….there isn’t one hiding.
I’ve got chemo, modern medicine and radiation. I can read about all the current complimentary therapies…..but above that I’ve got a powerful, all knowing….and “I can see that minute stray cell kind of God….He will send the hornets!” This passage has given me so much hope….He wants our obediance and our devotion to Him and in return He will provide our needs…..he doesn’t miss a thing! Regardless of my future He has a detailed plan that involves so much that I will never understand.
Jackie ended her letter with the following phrase….and I find it so fitting as I face the overwhelming giant ahead of me! It’s my battle cry!