Yesterday I went to a place called mastec here in Kalamazoo and got myself a pair of fake boobs. For any ladies out there I did not know this but they have bras for immediately after a mastectomy with little holders for the drains. Amazing what they have out there. I picked up a very pillowy pair of fakes for right after a mastectomy. It seems somewhat normal except for the fact that they are a bit higher than the originals and I feel like my arm bumps into them when I move around. I guess when my breasts were higher they were smaller since that would have been pre-baby.
I felt a bit silly when I went into mastec because I was crying when I went in. Not about my breasts, but about something else. My family doctor….the one I rave about here all the time is located in the same plaza. I had stopped over there to say hi to Sadie and see if Dr. Al had any recommendations for some of the pain I’m experiencing post surgery. When I walked in the office I saw all these women I didn’t recognize. I asked if Sadie or Bonnie were there. Sadie was and came out. I said “wow!” Dr. Al must be hiring!. She totally stunned me when she said that his practice had been bought out by Borgess and a new doctor would be practicing and that Dr. Al would be on an indefinite leave of absence. She said she didn’t know much more than that. I asked if I could call him and she said his phone was disconnected. I cried.
Do you ever meet someone in your life that inspires you to do more, be more, think deeper. That was Dr. Al to me. I had only begun to scratch the surface of natural living when I heard about him. When I first met him I was so happy that he didn’t pick on me for my selective, delayed vaccinations or my co-sleeping or my extended breastfeeding. He has always been very encouraging of my parenting style and has been especially supportive recently when I found out I had cancer. He has begun to feel like a family friend.
So this news hit me hard. Thankfully the ladies at mastec knew him as well and were in shock at the situation too. So I cried to the woman there as she began to pull out bras for me. What a sight. It took me a few minutes to gather myself together.
Word must have gotten to him that a crazy bald lady was crying in his office and I got a call from him this evening. He is OK! Yay! He has struggled with chronic fatigue for several years and private practice is quite draining so he has decided to take a break. He plans to do some traveling and rest. He is unsure of his future plans but it might entail coming back to work with Dr. Boxer. Which I think was the original plan anyway. He won’t commit to that. Which is OK….I’ll still hope:)
From what I gather private practice is getting more and more difficult. Dr. Boxer was able to persuade Borgess to have this traditional small “patient based” office with 1-2 doctors verses the larger pro-med type model of care. It looks like private practice, but isn’t exactly….but I guess insurance companies are making it harder and harder for private practice…not reimbursing as much, etc.
I say all this because I know a lot of you are local friends and you see Dr. Al as well and I want you to know he is sad, but needs to take a break. He was not run out of the practice. He didn’t do anything wrong. He also recommended I give Dr. Boxer a try, She does not seem to have the homeopathic/herbal background Dr. Al does, but she does desire a patient based model of care enough that she refuses to work in anything but smaller private practice. And I believe his original plan was to work with her to begin with.
Once again change is hard. I’m going to miss him alot….as will many of us.