“Mommy, can you hide that blood thing?”
My daughter says, nostrils flaring. My big concern with coming home was that my children would want to see the new bod and they would pass out upon seeing the scars. When asked to see the new nana’s, I was very cautious.
The Girls: “Can we see your new nana’s mama?” (seconds after being in the door)
Me: “I’m not sure you really want to see them yet, let’s let them heal a bit more.”
The Girls: “Please mom, we really want to see.”
Me: “How about you feel them instead….they feel real don’t they!”
The Girls: (feel my breasts….boy does that sound funny) “Wow, mommy, they do feel real!”
The Girls: “Mom, we really want to see.”
Me: (I show them a bit of the scar line on my breast, but not the worst part.)
The next day….
Meleah pokes her head in while I’m bathing….
Me: “Meleah….I really don’t think you want to see me yet.”
Meleah: “Yes, mommy, I do!”
Back and forth banter….
Me: “Ok….but I warned you. You might feel scared a little bit.”
Meleah: (Looks at me, tongue out, nose flaring) “Oh mommy…(pause)….that’s not so bad. But what’s that” (pointing to the one drain left)
Me: ” This collects fluid and blood leftover from surgery so I can heal better.”
Meleah….anytime my drain is peeking out…..”Mommy….can you hide that blood thing again…..it’s gross!”
I’m so relieved my children don’t find my bruised and sewn together body gross…..and I will have to say….the drain MUST go soon….very soon….we all agree!