Sometimes I feel like if I made it through cancer, I can make it through anything. And then, sometimes not. Sometimes I forget that I am strong. Sometimes I forget the foundation I have in Christ. Sometimes the business of life gets going and I forget that God made me, and I am His. I forget that I am a “daughter of the light.” He lives and me, he is a part of me. It is being in him that makes me strong.
I’ve been reading through Thessalonians right now. What an amazingly encouraging book of the Bible. I forget sometimes that Paul could be so encouraging! Even in Jail. (Thessalonians as a book of the Bible is really a letter Paul wrote to the people of Thessalonica. He was a follower of Christ who initially persecuted Christians but then became a follower himself and was jailed for his public faith at times).
So this past couple weeks has been pretty difficult. We got some news in our family that we didn’t really want to hear. It was bad news. It was difficult news. It’s the kind of news that takes your breath away and question if God really knows what he’s doing.
Then, my own calling as a pastor was questioned again. This happens quite often as a female pastor in an evangelical denomination, but it’s happened again. It tries my patience and discourages me deeply.
Check this out:
Convictions of Steel
2-5Every time we think of you, we thank God for you. Day and night you’re in our prayers as we call to mind your work of faith, your labor of love, and your patience of hope in following our Master, Jesus Christ, before God our Father. It is clear to us, friends, that God not only loves you very much but also has put his hand on you for something special. When the Message we preached came to you, it wasn’t just words. Something happened in you. The Holy Spirit put steel in your convictions.”
I love the use of the word steel here. It’s about the strongest substance you can find. The most secure. The stuff skyscrapers are made of. Ships battle storms on the high sea’s and they’re made of steel. Strong stuff.
So cancer was tough. Life is tough. But Christ lives in me and that makes me….well, stronger.